Intermission

I know I have not updated for a long time, I apologise.

A lot of things have changed and I am still trying to pull my thoughts together.

Will update soon I promise.

Cheers :)

Eugene

Smile

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

:)

Wonderful World

There is nothing remarkable about the above video. Just a woman with a great voice singing a classic. But what if you knew full well that you only have mere months to live because of cancer, would you still sing about how "wonderful" the world is? Not only just sing it, but sing it with such conviction.

The woman in the video is dead, she died of cancer. She sang that song knowing full well of her cancer and the mere months she has still to live. It takes something special to sing the song the way she did and in her state of health. Really sets you thinking doesn't it.

P.S. Her name is Eva Cassidy

Religulous

This is something I am looking forward to watch, it created quite a buzz over the net. I have long said to friends and on this blog that when you want to share the gospel to someone, you can't simply push the bible into his or her face. If you do that you will just look stupid and ridiculous. Worse still, you will look like a religious bigot. I believe that this upcoming documentary will prove this point resoundingly.

We need God's help to evangelise, even more so in this post-modern world where the sense of religious fatigue and cynicism is growing ever so strong. Trust me, even I as a christian am not immune to the effects of this. This burden is something I simply can't do anything about. God help me.

Unpopular?

There are some things I feel convicted by God to do but have never dare to do because I am afraid, or because it is the unpopular thing to do. The reason I am afraid is because I fear might stray away from Him, I might just make that fatal mistake without knowing it. It is very easy to say that just because it is a conviction from God the answer is very straight forward. There is always a cost to be counted with these things and one should never under-estimate the fear of uncertainty.

Should I commit myself to do this thing I feel convicted to do, it will change the dynamics of my faith to a great extent but I feel it will bring me closer and more equipped to act on the burdens I feel God has placed in my heart. But it is not without pitfalls, it is a road filled with dangers, dangers that I feel are beyond me. Yet I feel the most beautiful part of this situation is that the choice is entirely mine. It is not a command or an order, I have to make the decision using my own free will. I pray I will make the right one

Max Payne

I have been playing computer games for quite long now. The violence and gore of some of the games I have played have never disturb or fazed me, neither has any of the social life killing RPG games. That is until I played "Max Payne" and the sequel "The Fall Of Max Payne". It is not the most violent, neither is it the lengthiest. But the story and the premise of the game did shake me up a little.

It is about a cop named Max Payne. His entire family was kill and he was framed for the murder of one of his friends, a fellow police officer. After which he goes on a rampage to kill the people responsible taking no prisoners along the way. When they announced that they were making a movie out of the game, I thought they were going to reduce it to one of those "gun porn" rubbish. But I was wrong. After watching the trailer, I felt that it still retains its edge and darkness.

All of us has a dark side, I believe that Max Payne (the game and hopefully the movie) most accurately portrays what will happen if it were to be let loose to its full extent. I guess that is why it disturb me so. Anyway I hope you enjoy the trailer, it is definitely a must watch for me. Anybody want to join me?

North Sea Jazz Festival

Here is Silje Nergaard, live at the North Sea Jazz fesvital with the Tord Gustavsen Trio. Good stuff. Enjoy!

Brutal Honesty

I don't know why, but I especially inspired this week. 3 posts in 4 days is a new high for me considering that sometimes I only post once a fortnight or worse. One of my ex cell group leaders taught me something that made a lot of sense to me. He said that only when you are brutally honest with yourself then you can figure out where you actually are in life. I recently did one of those brutally honest assessments of my life and figured out a few things.

I started by asking myself a few questions then answering them as honest as I can and this is what I came up with.

1.How is life for me in general?

Things have been going well on the whole and I feel truly blessed. The job has been going well although things on my family side has hit a few bumps. But I believe it is nothing I can't handle through God's grace. People who are close to me will know about the uniqueness of my family and I believe that there is a certain strength in that.

2. How are things with God?

Well the forecast here is not as rosy as the one above unfortunately. Really struggling to meet His standards and follow His word. As for His will in my life, I am really making it up as I go along. Step by step, things always seem to work out in the end and for His glory. I guess I can appreciate the beauty in that.

3. How are things in church?

Now this is where it starts to go downhill. I really have lost my faith in the church as an institution for christians. Going into the reasons might require another post in this blog or more so I won't waste your time. Cell group has also not been going well for me. If you guys happen to hear me say that cell group was ok... I lied. Mainly because I did not want to influence anybody but also to sound polite. But since I have decided to be honest about this I guess I really do owe you this confession and my apologies.

I asked myself many other questions like further studies, dreams to be fulfilled etc... but that is another story. The reason I am sharing this now is because I feel a lot of people are caught up in the moment and really do lack perspective in their lives. Much like what I have experienced recently.

So I am sharing about how I get my perspective, a reality check of sorts. It gives me a guide about what I should do next, what steps to take. Other people might have some other way of doing it. But I believe we have nothing to lose and it will do us good in the end.

What Might Have Been

A door left ajar
Lets whispering from afar
Breath live into a dream of me and you

I will the spark to die
But still it lights my eye
Still makes me feel that this alone is real

And though I know it, I dare not show it
Or let this madness make a kill
By dwelling on what might have been
Or giving sadness space to fill
I will balance on the edge awhile
But won’t fall in

I will retrace every step
I ever run or tread
Hoping I will see
What is bleeding me

And when I know it, I won't show it
Or let this madness make a kill
By dwelling on what might have been
Or giving sadness space to fill
I will balance on the edge awhile
But won’t fall in

Mike Mcgurk

Flight Of The Conchords

I guess its been a long time since I posted a video here. So here's one! It is a band called "Flight Of The Conchords" with their runaway hit "Business Time." Yes it is full of sexual innuendo, but please just let your hair down and develop a sense of humor, we are all adults right? We should be able to take it. Enjoy! Tell me what you think.