Fear

They say that the greatest fear is the fear of the unknown. If that is true, I should be shaking in my legs with my pants down. Why do I say that? Well, since my university applications are down the drain and certain financial considerations, life after my national service has become a big question mark. So I am basically swimming in uncharted waters here. I guess I have good reason to fear the unknown.

So being a Christian, I turned to the only one I know can help me. God. Why? Because He is the only one who has produced the best results. Therein lies the complication, I always have a lot of difficulty following what I believe God wants me to do because I am unsure that that is Him speaking at all. What if God did not say what you think He said? Sometimes I honestly wish that God will appear in front of me and give me instructions of what he wanted me to do. Unfortunately thats not how God works.

Perhaps listening to God requires a balance of discernment and faith, discernment to recognize the voice of God and faith to have the guts to do what God tells you to do. Simple? It is, but I seem to find simplicity very hard to attain